Monday, November 12, 2007 which I whine a little

Friday I had a mini breakdown as I was driving down to LA to a slumber party with my knitting friends. I was on the phone with M, and about to cry because he had just told me to relax and not worry.

Something so simple (and so true) shouldn't drive me to tears. But last week, or more accurately last Friday, sucked.

  • I passed the 6 month anniversary of my brother's death with nothing more than an empty feeling - which was quickly replaced with a guilty feeling. And communication with my parents has been falsely cheery (on both ends) at best lately.
  • My new and improved allergy meds are not doing anything for the cough that brought me to the allergist in the first place (and my nose is running).
  • I have had credit card fraud for the second time in 2 months - making me worried that my information is out there for the taking. It's strange - the first time someone charged alot of gas to my card, the second time they tried to buy alot of clothes with my other card. I'm not sure what to do at this point.
  • Work. Oh work, how you stretch me. There have been structure changes in the last week that directly affected me. There's a trip to Puerto Rico (tonight, actually) to learn about the new process that's stressing me out because a) it's happening relatively quickly and b) the plan keeps changing. Originally one of the more senior group members was going to go, but that got nixed Friday and until about an hour ago it looked like I might be going by myself.

It's been a rollercoaster weekend, trying to pack and repack and clean and run errands, but it's not all bad. The slumber party was fun, and the food was tasty. Knitting has been happening - I have made some good progress on the Hourglass Sweater, finishing up the lower part of the body and starting on one of the sleeves. Though I think the Claptois, Chevron Scarf, and my mom's shawl will be the projects coming along with me this week. And I've decided to treat myself with the overtime I'll be earning and get some STR - the only hard part is narrowing down my choices!


lori z said...

hang in there!

Anonymous said...

That's a lot to be dealing with! :( Take care and have a safe trip! *hugs*

Katie said...

Hang in there, Kate! I hope your trip to Puerto Rico goes really well and that you at least get a little bit of time to enjoy the beach (or at least have a good margarita by the beach).

Anniversaries can be a little tough. I remember expecting to feel a certain way and I felt totally different. The important thing is just to really nurture yourself and be cool with where you are in the moment.

And, I hope you get those **&$# who have stolen your cc #. How terrible!

I'm also jealous of your being able to get some STR -- I always look at their stuff longingly waiting for the day I'll be able to splurge...

fluffbuff said...

Hope things have calmed down since your last post.

textual bulldog said...

hello my dear kate, just catching up on your blog a little bit... I hope this Puerto Rico trip went ok and that your Thanksgiving was ok. I thought of you then and will be thinking of you as this next round of holidays approaches... I hope we can get together for coffee or something before x-mas. xo, m.